Franz Marie Cruz’s Diary

i’ve reached this age and er, status where i my friends are eager to set me up on blind dates. it’s getting kinda funny.  my bestfriend’s mother wanted to set me up with her balikbayan nephew. a blockmate from college texted out of the blue asking if i am up for a "blind date". she’s fixing me up with a med schoolmate of hers.  another friend from college showed me a picture of her cousin in her phone and asked if i want to be set up on a date with him. and then just yesterday, a sis approached me and asked if i’m interested in being set up with my ex-crush.  well, except for the last "offer", my usual reply was sige lang, feeling malakas ang loob, but knowing naman that with kind of luck in this kind of stuff, hindi yun matutuloy. 

and ow, the most embarrassing of all is my dad introducing me to a younger, male member in his staff with the same intention as above.  aaaahhh….. that makes me cringe, remembering that incident.

ok, last week i learned that 2 of my college friends are engaged.  we met J for lunch, and without any warning, she suddenly announced "i’m getting married". we were all naturally surprised.  she didn’t warn me she had life changing news! akala ko we were just having lunch together because we happened to be in UP that day.  anyway, i am delighted for her. i am happy on how life is turning out for her coz that girl deserves a good, happy life.

and then the following day, while i was studying at the library, maybe hoping that my phone would beep to distract me a bit fromthe insane world of pediatrics, M texted and said she is engaged, wedding is set next year, planning after the boards nalang.  eto, my initial reaction was OH SHIT! SCARY! but of course, my reply to her was OHMYGASH! CONGRATULATIONS M! yada yada….  i am happy for her, it’s just siguro too much for me to receive 2 engagement news from 2 of my close friends in such a short span of time.  I mean, my reaction of fear/dread is normal diba?!?  It feels like everyone is growing so fast these days and i’m still stuck in 2nd grade or something like that. Scary. scary. scary. 

When one of my closest friends from HS moved to Singapore to work and go after her boyfriend, I kinda told her in my goodbye/bon voyage/best wishes/we’ll miss you letter not to grow up so fast, meaning marriage. and i know, mali, i can’t make my friends not marry because i am far from getting married myself. Hell, i need to find a boy for me first! shit.   but this sucks, being stuck in 2nd grade i mean, ahahaha.

when did i become this jaded… i find the latest news about katie-tom too good to be true…. when i think about it actually, everything about them is too good to be real…. i’m really convinced tom is sick, something that has affected his brain. yay, hear me, i don’t sound like a doctor at all. i can’t stand another second of insider tonight i had to get out and pester my youngest brother to let me use the computer. sigh. pester? pester are for the youngest sibling in the family. more like boss. yes, it is the more apt term for me. i had to get out and boss my youngest brother to let me use the computer. ahahaha.

had lunch with my girl cousins at glorietta today. had lunch and after lunch tea and scones.  i am so proud of what they have become and accomplished so far.  i’ve always been protective of these girls ever since.  but some things never change, like how small their apetites are. i swear, everytime we eat out or eat together, i feel like i’m so matakaw.

wala lang. just thought i should update my blog.  it’s 9 am, a wednesday and i’m in front of the computer. i know i’ll be studying within the next 2 hours.  planning to study at cs lib today. at dahil bawal yung civic, i might stay there til 6pm, closing time, then jog around the oval from 6 to 7 pm til the color coding thing ends and i can drive home. wow, just thinking about my planned sched for the day overwhelms me already.  i’m studying pharm now.  patty might join me at cs lib. sana… coz nakakahawa ang determination nya to study last time we reviewed together. i wanted to give up 2 hours earlier pero sabi nya we’ll finish at 6 so we finished at 6! ha!

went to manila yesterday to get more review books (9 books ata yun eh, not sure naman if i’ll be able to read all!) and to apply for the requirements for PGH residency. nyahaha. had lunch with edhel. missed her na rin eh.  and dinner with jen, my cousin’s gf/pisay dil alum/pgh intern.  she turns 22 today. aaaahhh…. ang bata. 22 ako when i was 1st year med proper.

i haven’t been attending the review classes my mom paid 2k for. tsk, tsk. figured i’m more productive if i study on my own. plus i really don’t like manila that much, even after 5 years of med. i don’t like the trip, the roads, the horrendous traffic to get there and i don’t really like the place.  mas maganda pa rin ang qc for me.

but i do miss the people and my friends in UP-PGH.  sila nga lang yung reason why i would attend the review in the future.

i miss my blockmates too, especially after reading ivy’s blog. gimik sana but we’re all studyng for the boards and partying and alcohol are not a good idea now. shucks.

i’ve been crawling through biochem for the past 3 days and i’m only halfway now.  here’s what i’ve learned… for dieters out there, a high fat diet inactivates the enzymes necessary for cholesterol and fat synthesis, while a low fat and high carb diet favor fat synthesis.  this is one of the reasons why those atkin and south beach diets work.