stuck
ok, last week i learned that 2 of my college friends are engaged. we met J for lunch, and without any warning, she suddenly announced "i’m getting married". we were all naturally surprised. she didn’t warn me she had life changing news! akala ko we were just having lunch together because we happened to be in UP that day. anyway, i am delighted for her. i am happy on how life is turning out for her coz that girl deserves a good, happy life.
and then the following day, while i was studying at the library, maybe hoping that my phone would beep to distract me a bit fromthe insane world of pediatrics, M texted and said she is engaged, wedding is set next year, planning after the boards nalang. eto, my initial reaction was OH SHIT! SCARY! but of course, my reply to her was OHMYGASH! CONGRATULATIONS M! yada yada…. i am happy for her, it’s just siguro too much for me to receive 2 engagement news from 2 of my close friends in such a short span of time. I mean, my reaction of fear/dread is normal diba?!? It feels like everyone is growing so fast these days and i’m still stuck in 2nd grade or something like that. Scary. scary. scary.
When one of my closest friends from HS moved to Singapore to work and go after her boyfriend, I kinda told her in my goodbye/bon voyage/best wishes/we’ll miss you letter not to grow up so fast, meaning marriage. and i know, mali, i can’t make my friends not marry because i am far from getting married myself. Hell, i need to find a boy for me first! shit. but this sucks, being stuck in 2nd grade i mean, ahahaha.
